Better today

I'm hoping and trying to change a lot around here.  Much with parenting, still more with food.  And the greater, more challenging task of figuring out how to give back.

I feel so passionate about it all right now, yet I can't figure out how to channel it.  Arranging it into some sort of do-able, non-overwhelming pattern would be much appreciated.  My mind goes a million miles a minute each day with hopes, thoughts, passions and ideas.  I overwhelm myself and end up channeling my passion to nowhere but a box in the back seat of my dreams.

I've been so inspired lately by people, blogs, books and information.

I sat today feeling inspired.  Over nothing specific, just inspired to be better.  I forced myself to be still and relish in that.  Simmer in it's anointing and wade in it's presence and what it means to have inspiring people in my life.  Most of them, if not all of them, don't even know how inspiring they are.

To want to be "better" can be overwhelming and mean so many things but to be willing to change one thing at a time is doable.


I'm attempting a complete overhaul in our home.  After watching documentaries like Food Inc. and Sick, Fat, and Nearly Dead, along with the plethora of information one can't really avoid but I previously chose to turn a blind eye to, it's time for big changes in the Borrack house.

Things like vegetable oil and white sugar have been done away with and replaced by healthier alternatives.  I now own tahini and make my own vanilla extract and laundry detergent.  Our last hamburger came from a grass fed cow and it's the only meat I've had all week.  My food processor gets used once, sometimes three times a day for various spreads like hummus or pesto or snacks like a fruit/veggie smoothie.  My "moms night out" last night was attending a free class at Whole Foods about eating healthy on a budget.  I'm spending nap-time doing dinner prep and making lunches for the days to come.  It's more work.  It's more expensive.  It's my family.  It's worth it.

However, I'm also completely overwhelmed by it.  When I read one of my new favorite blogs (www.100daysofrealfood.com or www.deliciouslyorganic.net) I feel as though I've made steps in the right direction but I still have so very far to go.

I've felt this way with working out, with bible studies, with parenting, with housework.  It's easy to focus on shortcomings and lose sight of experiencing joy in my triumphs and appreciating gained ground.

I decided I needed a motto, some sort of saying to remind myself that this is a journey and I am a work in progress.  I'm sure someone has said something similar better, more eloquently and better versed but telling myself this lately helps.  I've will make better choices today than I did yesterday.  These choices don't define me, but they can drive me.  The circumstances of my day will constantly be changing and often full of things I cannot control.  BUT I can control my response to those circumstances and give my very best.  I can make a conscious effort.  I can be intentional and purposeful and let less fall to the wayside.

I can eat better food and feed my family better today than yesterday.
I can parent better today than I did yesterday.
I can love others better today than I did yesterday.
In short....I can make today a better day.  The best it can be.
I will plug in today.
I will plug in to my kids
                      to my husband
                      to my body
                      to my God
                      today.

Each day is full of choices.  Lots and lots of little choices that have a huge impact on the day, week, year, life at large.

If I want my girls to grow up to make wise choices, they need to first see that in me.  Decision making isn't always easy but when done well, the benefit is great.  I want to model the joy and blessings from wise decisions, not the burden of a poorly handled process to get there.

Today is a good day.