Single digit lessons

It was fun to see this when we got up this morning! We started out in triple digits, slowly made our way to double, and today is our first day in the single digits! Matt and I wonder what happens when your due date comes and goes...do alarms go off or does it start spitting Pitocin at you? Maybe I'm getting it confused with the real world ;). People seem to have the thought that your due date is the last possible date that you should have delivered by, when nothing could be further from the truth. It is just an estimate and a VERY safe 2 week window on both sides...I'm not saying I hope to wait until the end of that 2 week window though...we are ready when God says Elyse is.

On another note, our doctor appointment went very well yesterday. A week ago I had been a little concerned over our lack of growth and measuring small. If there's one thing I've learned it's that fear and anxiety are not of God. He never meant that for us, so daily I gave Him my body and my daughter and asked that nothing more than His will be done with it. I asked Him to use me and this situation in whatever way He saw fit so that He could be honored...if that meant complications and interventions for a small baby, it was more than okay with me. I went to my appointment yesterday with such a sense of peace and assurance, it could have only come from God himself. I didn't have a worry in the world and knowing I had completely submitted myself to Him was the most calming feeling I'd ever experienced. This whole entire thing is not about me or Matt and it's not about Elyse either, it's about how it can be used for God and I love being a part of that. I feel like clay in His hands now and I'm so thankful to finally be at this place where I can say I'm truly ready for however this is going to play out.

So I went to the doctor yesterday prepared for anything but confident in everything. My doctor was thoroughly impressed with a growth of 2 centimeters in just one week when I hadn't grown in 5 weeks...I was thankful but not surprised. I snickered to myself and realized once again I'm being taught on where my hope and reliance MUST come from.