The setting: Once home together one evening, we took out the box and set it on the couch between us. We had the song we danced to at our wedding playing, drinks poured in wine glasses, and after looking through previous ultrasound pictures in awe of our child, we said our final guesses, and made a toast. We slowly opened the little box of our dreams and saw the color that will cover our house for years to come!
Our faces must have been priceless. It was definitely a captured moment.
The best part: We still had the "big" ultrasound with the doctor to look forward to and we got to see her in person as our daughter for the first time and she is absolutely perfect! The determination of girl was confirmed again, not that we ever doubted. The way it all played out was perfect. It was so us. It was such a wonderful, unique, and intimate way to find out.
The one thing I keep coming back to is how incredible this all is, how miraculous. How a child could absolutely never be dismissed as anything other than a perfect, appointed gift from God. He made her for us. 
She had a magnificent journey to be where we are and who she is as we speak. She was the one of the 280-400 million others to come to fruition that day. Out of all those others, she is the only one that made it in. She is a miracle, our perfect miracle, she is fearfully and wonderfully made being knit together in my very womb in her specific design that is unique to her alone. She is our precious gift meant specifically for Matt and I and we could not be more thrilled or in awe!
Seeing her on the ultrasound screen did for us what I'm sure it does for most people. It humbles you and amazes you to the point of being speechless. Words can't describe it, not even close. As a NICU nurse though, having the ultrasound tech go over each and every part of our daughter describing how incredibly perfect she looked was overwhelming. We started at the very top of her head and could see it's perfect shape and bone structure and a healthy brain with all it's parts. We moved to her eyes . . . perfectly in place. Ears right where they should be. Her nose and lips almost sent me over the edge. They were the cutest, most beautiful thing I had ever seen and we could see them perfectly. The tech said it looked like she was smiling. My heart was swollen beyond measure at this point as we moved down her body and saw her lungs, ribs, and all perfectly functioning four chambers of her tiny beating heart. We could see her stomach and kidneys, 3 vessels in her umbilical cord that was pulsating her blood through the perfect placenta attached to me as well. I saw where I was connected to my daughter . . . how do you even try to describe that? We moved from her middle down her perfect legs and knees to her tiny feet and toes. Everything in place just as it should be. Beautiful hands and arms moving around in a dance all her own. She looked very content in there and it warmed my heart to see her enjoying her home inside of her mother who just happens to be me!
Here she is today at her half-way point of 20 weeks. A whole new world has opened up to us. What will she be like? Who will she look like? Matt's blonde hair, or my brown? What will her giggle sound like? For now, she can enjoy her comfy quarters and grow strong and well, we will have a lifetime to get to know her.I hit the stores running and pink has consumed a small little corner of her future closet. It will be amazing to watch the contents of that corner slowly grow along with my belly, until it has consumed our house, our hearts, and we get to bring her home to share it all with her. This whole new world has opened up to us and seeing things through the eyes of parents of a daughter is incredible! I hope she like us because we are head over heels in love with her.
Telling the world: It all happened on Saturday night. Telling friends and family was priceless and even better than I could've ever anticipated. My favorite reaction was my moms. When I told her she screamed . . . she actually screamed out loud. I know every child is special, but I also know on my side it's the 3rd grand-child, and 3rd girl at that, so I didn't expect it to be a big deal to anyone but us. Her heart-felt and sincere reaction was priceless and it warmed my heart. You would have really thought this was the first grand child ever, which just goes to show how special each child is regardless. Her tight embrace and joyful tears were contagious and Matt and I were overwhelmed with joy in sharing the wonderful news.
Telling Matt's family was wonderful as well. This will be the first girl in his family of men which makes her that much more anticipated for Matt's dad and I think she'll have him wrapped around her pinkie the day she's born. In reality, she does already. When Matt talked to him today, he was made sure Matt was taking good care of his baby girl. There is already talk about Opa/granddaughter dates and daddy/daughter dates which just about had me in tears. To picture grown men courting my daughter with fatherly love and wisdom leaves me speechless . . . she will be blessed beyond measure with the love girls yearn for. These amazing men are over-flowing with such a unique fatherly love and I can already see God's plan in giving this life and this love to a little girl who will soak it up like a sponge.
Later telling our house-full of friends was so fun and I'm so thankful for how it turned out. We were surrounded by excitement, tears, and talks of pink, dresses, bows, and girly things. He will be upset at me for saying this, but I can't help it . . . Matt even shed some tears picturing how hard her her wedding day will be for him. I can't explain the feelings coursing through my veins last night as my belly was rubbed and my daughter whispered to, knowing and feeling how dearly she is already loved and how many people adore her before our eyes even meet. I don't know how I ever came to deserve this, but I'm thankful to say the least.
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